Tuesday, March 31, 2020, 1:53 pm

Opportunites from solitude

I feel like I’ve been training my entire life for this.

Seriously though, social distancing comes naturally to me. Perhaps too naturally.

I tend to bask in my solitude.

I’m comfortable there.

Sure, it gets lonesome at times, but on the bright side, there’s no drama, no judgement, no awkwardness, no worries.

No sex.

Well...

It is tempting to take advantage of the time and sit in a room and think about things. Yet, that would be a step in the wrong direction. I’ve spent the entire month working on taking in the feelings of everything I’m experiencing...

I’ve been an academic too long. Now, I have a hunger... I’ve had a taste of the value of chaos, and I’m intrigued.

I want to reach out to some of the ladies from my past—this one girl, in particular—and find out what she feels when she’s around me.

And to drop the layers of bullshit.

If there was ever anything there, the honest feedback will be liberating. We all hide behind masks, yet perhaps I can shed one or two...

Thursday, March 12, 2020, 6:51 am

Witnessing insanity

The entire world has gone mad. Why is it in our nature to completely lose our shit over something we cannot possibly control?

Yes. Control.

Today’s headlines (and, mind you, I don’t news or social media, yet I cannot seems to get away from this one) have the media reporting governments and businesses taking drastic measures to attempt to control the spread of the novel coronavirus from China.

Only human arrogance can assume there is anything WE can do to contain the threat.

Seattle is a high-risk area? Okay, their team will play in a less risky area. Wait, won’t that move masses of people into this area for these games... making it a high-risk area?

Tournaments will be played in front of no fans. Sports seasons suspended (possibly cancelled?). Travel from Europe to the US suspended for thirty days. No toilet paper can be found in the grocery stores.

All out of fear.

Yet, has humanity ever successfully “slowed down” the spread of a virus? Especially a new one that no one really understands?

Has no one read The Stand? Nor seen The Walking Dead?

And again, human arrogance assumes that somehow we can keep death at bay. Why don’t people realize that death is still the endgame. No one will get out of this alive.

Death finds us all. Maybe the planet has found a way to rid itself of the human plague. Maybe not.

Maybe I’m cynical. Maybe we should “try” to contain this threat. But please, be rational about it.

Yet all we do, as a society, is react.

Good luck with that.

These are interesting times. One possible reason for this excessive media coverage over this threat is it could single-handedly cripple the economy. Lead the US into financial ruin.

Let’s forget about the virus for a second and consider this: March Madness, while I don’t partake, is a big deal to many in this country. Closing off the events to the general public deals a considerable blow to the economies of the hosting cities. How many of these local economies rely on these events?

Add to this, recent comments from a sports owner that fans that attend the games don’t matter—at least not in the grand scheme of television royalties and $$$. So, we disinvite the public. The threat passes, but sports (read: business) likes this. It’s cleaner. The big money is still there, the overhead is gone in the arenas. Big sports will go on, without fans in attendance.

Why, then, should cities continue to host these teams? Their economies will crumble. How much does the food, beverage & entertainment industries (minus sports, of course) rely on fans? How many cities will soon file bankruptcy in this potential timeline?

Okay, I get that the threat is real. Maybe attempts should be made to contain it. Maybe, however doubtful, humans will succeed in halting the spread.

The best predictor of future behavior/success is past behavior/success.

Just breathe people. This too shall pass. And someday, every one of you will die. And someday, every one of you will be forgotten. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust.

The house always wins.

Wednesday, March 4, 2020, 9:58 am

Empty shelf

Two months in, and I have not completed a single book this year.

That’s not to say I’m not reading. It’s also not an indication I’m not working on myself—I am.

As a numbers person, I set a daily push-ups goal I could adhere to: one push-up for today’s day of the year. So, January 1? I did one push-up. Today? Sixty-four.

I am surprised at the results I am seeing from this simple resolution. Never in my life have I had pectorals that pop... until now. Plus, I was able to continue with the push-up regimen while I was unable to lift weights in the gym due to a shoulder injury last November.

As far as the books I am reading, one is a re-read—of which I am taking notes, slowing down the process. The others are rather deep reads. Currently, there is no fiction included, which tends to fly by faster and boost my reading speed. There are a couple on my shelf competing for attention, perhaps it is time to crack them open.

There is also a lot on my plate. I’d like to sell everything—well, almost everything—yet I find saying that and doing that are very different. As my life coach pointed out last weekend, I fail to hustle. That statement hit close to home. I have a deep lazy streak, and most days it seems I’d rather just forget about it and take a nap, then to actually tolerate, much less challenge, any uncertainty or pain in my life. Being aware of that is a beginning, right?

So, I’m not reading. I am still moving forward... it’s time to pick up the pace. Jog, run, fly.

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