It's time to update/revise my workout. It's not that my current regimen isn't working... it just isn't working everything.

Somehow, i've managed to neglect my arms and legs. I proved that last night when i did my arm and leg curls. So, i'll be re-integrating those machines back into my workout, and i'll have to start a bit lighter than the last time i used them.

I'm not worried though, i'll get it back.

Although, i'll be missing the workouts again next week. It's time for a long overdue trip back home to the great white north.

I have mixed feelings about the trip. The past several trips have been short visits and included a "rendezvous" with a certain someone.

This time, i'm looking at a long trip... with no certain someone. Not that i won't look up women i used to know, nor will i stay away from women i don't. Let's just say there are no guarantees.

Everything is up in the air. It's exciting and a bit frightening at the same time.

There are some people i genuinely hope i do not run into. There are a few that i'm looking forward to seeing again.

I have some favorite restaurants i'll visit as well. Yum!

Most of my friends from the "ancient time" are now living in the surrounding communities. Of course, in the north, that takes on a different meaning than here in the bread basket. Traveling to see one friend will be over 200 miles round trip.

And since i'm driving out there, i think it's safe to say i will not be so eager to take a road trip anytime soon.

I've already got the iPod loaded with missed podcasts and audiobooks, i've got new mixed CDs for the CD changer. I'm almost finished packing, and i just have a few more details to attend to.

So, why am i not looking forward to this? I'm not sure. If i'm not looking forward to it, why am i going? Again, not sure. Part of me is afraid of getting bored, another part is afraid of not seeing someone i want to or seeing someone i don't.

Maybe the anxiety is getting to me. When i planned this trip a few months ago, i was eager... but i was also a different person.

Anyway, tomorrow i leave. For better or worse. I guess we'll have to wait and see what happens!

Yesterday, i finally made it back to the gym. Apparently i wasn't the only one who endured the long holiday closure... there were quite a few people there!

Anyway, i was anxious about stepping on the scale. I know i shouldn't be, because even if i gain a few pounds on holiday meals... once i get back into my routine it will melt back off.

I didn't have anything to worry about. I was actually one pound lighter than my last weigh-in before Christmas. I practically did a jig out of the locker room! =^)

I suppose that is an indication that my current diet/exercise regimen is working well and my metabolism is running better than it was... because other than a little discipline for the desserts, i didn't really cut back at the holiday meals.

Finally, i figured something out!

I guess i was most worried about being over that '163' hurdle... because it took two months to lose that particular pound.

Anyway, that ends my unhealthy rant about my weight. Now i need to work on getting back in shape. I still winded pretty easily and can't breathe through my nose as easily as i could before my cold a couple of weeks ago... so i have some work to do.

Oh joy! Hardee's has brought back the Big Twin! What a fabulous lunch that made. =^)

Of course, that's not enough to totally satisfy my new year... my new beginning... the first day of the rest of my life...

You get the picture.

So, i think my list of what i want/need to accomplish over the next year is complete. I honestly don't know if all of it is attainable, but it will at least serve as a guide... if things don't work i can make adjustments or adapt.

From this viewpoint, i think it's all do-able... but some items on the list are going to require some creative methods to achieve them. That's an essential part of my life plan for the next year though, learn how to make things happen and be confident!

Confidence is the biggest piece to this puzzle... the key to unlock the mysteries i've struggled with all my life.

Anyway, before i get all philosophical, or poetic, or theological, or whatever... here is my list of goals for 2007 (listed in no particular order):

• Keep an open mind about everything.
• To have no regrets for reasons of shyness, overanalyzing or (God forbid) money.
• Eliminate my consumer debt. (Yes, eliminate!)
• Purchase a new car (VW Jetta, here we come) w/cash.
• Furnish my house.
• Rewire my house.
• Maintain my current weight range through diet and exercise, only allowing weight gain for reasons of muscle mass .
• Read no less than eighteen books (recreational reading, not school-related) over the next twelve months.
• Be running three miles a day by year end.
• Be the best friend possible to my friends and stop being so selfish.
• Shoot a roll of film (or equivalent) each month. (So, at least a picture a day...)
• Learn to play an instrument (or two... i've always wanted to learn both piano & saxophone).
• Learn American Sign Language.
• Take ballroom dancing lessons.
• Get involved with the community through volunteering.

Ok, i realize some of these goals are extremely... erm, ambitious, but if i don't write them down someplace where i see them every day (yes, that's why my new whiteboard is for), i won't hold myself accountable to working towards them. This way, at least, i have a shot! Who knows what i can accomplish! =^)

As an early step in my confidence building, i've been going out of my way to talk to strangers. It makes sense, because i need to learn social skills, and if i can walk up to a beautiful woman, not bore her, and even make her laugh... then i'm moving in the right direction!

Even if it isn't about scoring!

It'll come... like anything else, practice will build confidence and confidence will inspire relationships. It makes perfect sense!

I didn't seem to have any problems Sunday night... and the young ladies i spent most of the evening with were great!

Yes, this is going to be a great year! =^)

Where do i begin? I mean, it seems like a year has passed since my last post.

Oh yeah, it has. =^)

Seriously though, it seems like a lot has happened. I talked to D for the first time in quite a while... which was pleasant. I guess i'm not sure what to think, because the game has changed... even if the players remain the same.

I'll elaborate on that at a later date.

I also spent some time with N again. She still has the most amazing eyes... and now i know that they're real.

However, now i'm in the new year. The time for planning has passed... this year, i'm a man of action! I feel like i got a good start at the New Year's Eve party. Part of my plan is to go out of my way to meet new people... which i think will be key to building my confidence. There will be more on that later.

I feel like i'm putting a lot of what i want to write off until later... but that's because i am.

I have so much to do yet tonight... including running to the grocery store for some milk, but i wanted to put something down so hopefully it will trigger memories for later posts.

So much to do, so much! So much to look forward to! It's going to be a great year! =^D

I just want a pretty brunette girl with bright eyes and freckles on her chest...