You know, i have made some pretty bad decisions in my life. I guess you could say that i always wanted more...

It's amazing how little everything means now. Now that i have lost the love of my life... i don't give a shit about anything.

Does that mean she was right? Was i focusing too much on us and not enough on me?

I don't think so... after all, i made the decision to go back to school for my bachelors degree, i made the decision to keep feelers out for a better career opportunity. I believe most of my decisions were to make my life better... which in turn would've made our lives better.

I suppose she wanted more too. In my decision to go back to school, to buy a house, to take steps towards financial stability... i lost the biggest thing that mattered to me. Even the decisions i thought were good ended up making things worse...

And now, nothing seems to matter.

Shit. I hate this...