otherwise I'd be glad to... I'm prone towards sternness, facially. Um, there's some anecdotal evidence to suggest that, uh, a smile isn't simply inside-out conduct, that the inverse is applicable as well. I smile because I'm happy, I'm happy because I smile.

One thing I've been working on that has been difficult for me is my smile.

I've been told I have a nice smile, but I suppose I've always been self-conscious about it. Because of that, I have a tough time letting go and letting out a genuine smile.

In fact, I don't know if I'm even still capable of it. Whenever the urge to smile comes, it triggers something that makes me think about it. When I think about it, I try to control it... and the result is, well...

D says it looks like I'm grimacing.

So, that's my smile... it looks like I'm using new and improved Joker products.

I guess I'm in need of some smile therapy.

I wonder what it is that makes children so self conscious of their smiles? My nephew exhibits the same "fake smile" as I do. Recently, when my sister was shooting pictures of our niece and nephews, my nephew would put on this cheesy, fake, closed-mouth smile.

And my brother-in-law made fun of it... is that what traumatizes kids into hiding their smiles? People make fun of our smiles?

I want to be one of those people who have that natural smile... and it just comes out all of the time.

Perhaps I'm still too uptight. Perhaps...

But I am working on it. Perhaps someday soon I'll find my inner smile and let it out. =^)

What i'm listening to:

I Don't Care
Shakespear's Sister
Hormonally Yours