Wow, i think i'm finally starting to move on.

*FINALLY*

Ok, maybe that's premature... after all, it has only been ten days. However, i feel a bit more accepting of the situation. Do i still think she's making a mistake? Yes. Do i have to let her make it? Yes. Do i still want to be her friend? Yes.

So, it is time to start climbing out of this hole. If it is our destiny to be together, then our paths will cross again... and she will still be the wonderful person i fell in love with.

She loved me, i have absolutely no doubts about that... in fact, i believe she still does. The time just isn't right. She sees it, perhaps i do now too.

However, i still have that twinge where i want to say goodbye. We'll see.

Anyway, today i saw the house and found out what happens next... negotiations for repairs. Yay!

Does that mean i'm ready to stay in Topeka? Perhaps... for now, anyway!

So, if i can continue on this path and keep those bloody dreams at bay... i should be ok! Wish me luck!