One thing I have discovered about myself is that I tend to look at the world through the eyes of a child.

I don't know why I do it, I just do. It could be how I cope with stress, it could be my "Peter Pan syndrome," or it could just be an attempt to hold onto innocence.

Some may argue that I haven't been innocent for some time.

Friday afternoon, my new camera arrived. Now, I only wish I had more time, but this is a particularly busy week with homework and other activities. However, I have been taking it out and taking random photos.

I think that is the major advantage to shooting digital. I'm more willing to be experimental, because I don't have to wait until I get the film processed to see what I shot. I can take the shot, glance at the LCD, and if I don't like it I can change my settings and shoot another one right away... same light, same conditions.

I'm excited about taking photos again... it's about time! =^)

I do wonder how my "childlike wonder" affects my relationships. I always thought it was an advantage, my spontaneity, my adventuresomeness, my dislike for boring routine, my passion.

And, once again, perhaps I'm thinking about it too much. Since I haven't had time to get out much, I'm afraid I've been using the "before time" as my sole frame of reference. Maybe she just didn't take me seriously.

I guess I never thought it would take so long to let go. For the most part, I have. C was poisonous to me. Somehow, she managed to repress me. Somewhere along the line, I decided she was the best I would ever find... and I stopped chasing my dreams.

Now she can poison someone else. Her problems run much deeper than I could ever even imagine.

My life is so much better now, albeit a little too busy. I need to free up some time so I can work on alleviating this loneliness. I guess by looking at things through the eyes of a child, I only see the surface... I don't see how people manage to juggle the many facets of their lives.

Last weekend, I ran into someone I met a month or so ago who was just starting his divorce. He was with his girlfriend, a rather nice looking young lady. I don't even know where to meet these women...

We'll have to do something about that. A told me last weekend that she was going to make it her mission to see me happy with some great woman. How can I pass up an offer like that?

Wow!

Everything is right with the world today. Why, you ask? Well, let me explain.

My car is still in the shop. Hopefully, today I'll get the call that let's me know I can pick her up. At least they hooked me up with a loaner Friday afternoon. I could get used to this 2006 Corolla! =^)

I like the automatic headlights, cruise control, power locks, keyless entry, in-dash CD-changer, outdoor temperature display, etc., etc.

I do miss my tinted windows though. And the stick shift. I've never been a fan of automatic transmissions.

Anyway, it was a very pleasant courtesy... I just hope they don't overshoot the estimate on my car's repairs!

But that's not the reason I'm in good spirits.

I spent most of Sunday in Kansas City. Ended up getting in touch with an old friend, and seeing his great new house. Even snagged a job offer that's worth mulling.

My sister was swamped at work, but we did talk a little bit. Her going away party is next weekend, and I'll get to see her on Easter Sunday.

But that's not it either.

Yesterday, I signed up for my classes for the summer and fall. I think I've managed to finally make some progress on my transcript, but I'm going to have to push the envelope of "being overworked" a bit harder. I hope I'm not overextending myself!

And history majors are SOOO cute!

Also, yesterday I met with a nutritionist. I had mentioned my appointment to A on Sunday night, and was a bit shocked at her reaction. She was telling me everything he'd say and that I certainly don't need to pay money for diet recommendations.

Well, to put it mildly, she was wrong. About that anyway... she did say some things that were spot on (but not about nutrition).

I was surprised to find out that part of my problem is I'm not eating enough... especially at key points of the day. Also, I learned how to prevent the bloated, gassy feelings and getting regular.

Nope, that's not it either.

Today, during lunch I treated myself to something I've never had before. Back in January, I was attending a networking party and met a young lady who owns a salon here in town. I had mentioned to her that I'd never had a pedicure, and had heard that guys get them at the beginning of "sandal season" these days... and that maybe I should indulge.

So, after lunch, that's exactly what I did.

It was a very calming and relaxing experience... and my feet look really good!

And, now everything's right with the world.

At least until I get the bill for my car... =^p