Last weekend, I watched one of my favorite movies. Ferris Bueller’s Day Off has always ranked high on my watchability list, yet it’s a bit deeper than I initially realized.

This time, the museum scene struck me as incredibly profound. Watching Cameron having that moment with the girl in the Seurat painting—as the camera zooms closer and closer into Cameron’s eyes, then to the girl, back to Cameron, back to the girl. Cameron’s world seems to get clearer, as the little girl simply disappears.

It was this weekend, I finally realized this is Cameron’s story. Not Ferris’s.

Hey, I never said I wasn’t dense.

More often than I care to admit, I begin my day like Cameron. In bed. No interest in getting up. No interest in living. Wishing I was sick, so I’d have an excuse to stay there.

Forever.

And ever.

Maybe, just maybe, all I need is a friend like Ferris to show me my best day ever.

In the movie, Cameron experiences growth and change. He’s ready to grab life by the balls.

This. This is what I need.

And that song—I Googled the museum scene, because that song has been haunting me ever since. Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want.

For the last year, this has been my theme. Yet, I still cannot get what I want when I don’t know what I want.

What do I want?

Until I know, I will never obtain that drive to get it.

What do I want?

I am not going to sit on my ass as the events that affect me unfold to determine the course of my life.

What i'm listening to:

Please, Please, Please Let ...
The Dream Academy
Ferris Bueller's Day Off