If someone had told me five years ago that the day would come when i would wish the phone would ring, i would have told her she's crazy.

But here i am. I suppose that was one thing i enjoyed about being in a relationship. There was always someone to call... always someone who would call.

I'd never have guessed i would have become dependent on such an obscure thing. It's almost like a drug.

Days go by when i wonder why i pay to have a phone. It wasn't long ago when i'd just glare at the phone and want to throw it against the wall... just to hear it make some sort of satisfying noise.

But i don't. I suppose it is the hopeless romantic in me that makes me continue to carry it. A few of my recent female acquaintances have my number, but rarely opt to use it.

*sigh*

Oddly, it really doesn't get me down as much as this post appears to be conveying. It's more of an observation than anything. Don't get me wrong, i'm still dealing with loneliness... and i don't even seem to be able to coordinate with the friends i was hanging out with for a while there.

I suppose it is time to find something new to do. However, i'm still keeping pretty busy and i still have a not-so-newly moved into house to get in order... do i have time to create new social situations?

I have been searching frantically for my day planner which appears to have been mis-packed during my move. I desperately need to start writing down my daily plans! It's easy enough to know i need to go to work at 8, class at 5:30 and workout at 7... but it's the other stuff. I need to set aside time to study, time for leisure, time to clean.

It makes sense if i allocate a set time to only work on the house... eventually it will be in order. If i allocate a set time to study every night, i should have an easier time keeping up with my school work... maybe regular visits to the library are again in order.

I suppose that is the bad thing about taking on so many new things at one time... right now i feel like i don't have time to keep up. Although when i look at the individual components of my work, school, social and extra-curricular schedules... i should be able to make this work.

I just need to plan better... and have the faith that everything will work out. Because it will. =^)

What i'm listening to:

My Girlfriend's Girlfriend
Type O Negative
October Rust