Yesterday, I reached an impasse. I truly need to shit or get off the pot.

I’m on month eighteen of my journey through the wilderness on my career path. As such, I’ve been working a job outside of my interests and skills, as it allows me to exist through freelance droughts.

People ask how I like it. “Like” is not the word I would use to describe it. There are a couple of aspects of it I enjoy. I enjoy solving problems. I enjoy the technical writing that comes with it.

So, it’s only natural that I’m offered a lateral shift that takes both away from me. I’ll be shifting to a job of middle man, where I’ll be arguing with providers and talking with desperate clients that I’m not able to tell them what they want to hear.

All things happen for a reason, right? So, I can look at this as karma continuing to seek vengeance for the numerous terrible things I have done...

Or, I can look at this as the kick in the ass I need to find my way back to my career path.

I’m hoping for the latter... but one thing I’ve realized is on my journey is my greatest weakness: lack of awareness of my true strength.

To that end, the career search will shift to aggressive, and the job search will as well. A job is a job is a job. There are jobs out there, as evidenced by the dozen I’ve applied for in the last twelve hours. Any of them will sustain me while I figure out my strengths and find the trail back to my path.

Hang in there... there is hope. And, don’t feel guilty about leaving this job. They were never going to hire you for your talents anyway.