Thursday, June 1, 2006, 8:35 pm
All's well...
I think today was a good day. C and I talked on the phone for a couple of hours... and while she's still angry with me, and i haven't exactly forgiven her yet either, we did clear the air over a few of our issues.
I know it probably won't do our relationship any good, but i figure if we can learn how to communicate... maybe we can carry this on to the next one.
If there is a next one.
Anyway, it meant a lot to me that we were able to talk without fighting and to clear the air over some of the communication breakdowns we experienced near the end.
And we still have our chemistry... and she still cares.
We talked about lots of things, school, dogs, Preakness, work, my new bed...
Mostly, i guess we talked about us... it was a very emotional call, but i'm glad it happened.
And i'm glad she didn't hang up. She could have at any time.
I think it was probably good for her too. We learned a lot about each other, and said some things to each other that really should have been said six weeks ago.
No, i don't think we'll be getting back together tho'. That would be my fondest wish, and i truly hope she thinks about some of the things we said... but my experience with wishes isn't exactly stellar.
Especially since the breakup.
But she still knows me better than anyone, and i still know her better than anyone too... i think once the pain and anger subside, maybe we can fold this all into a close, sincere friendship.
That, i believe is attainable... in time.
Thank you, C, for giving me back a spark of hope... not necessarily for us, but for myself. It may just give me the strength i need to carry on.
I know it probably won't do our relationship any good, but i figure if we can learn how to communicate... maybe we can carry this on to the next one.
If there is a next one.
Anyway, it meant a lot to me that we were able to talk without fighting and to clear the air over some of the communication breakdowns we experienced near the end.
And we still have our chemistry... and she still cares.
We talked about lots of things, school, dogs, Preakness, work, my new bed...
Mostly, i guess we talked about us... it was a very emotional call, but i'm glad it happened.
And i'm glad she didn't hang up. She could have at any time.
I think it was probably good for her too. We learned a lot about each other, and said some things to each other that really should have been said six weeks ago.
No, i don't think we'll be getting back together tho'. That would be my fondest wish, and i truly hope she thinks about some of the things we said... but my experience with wishes isn't exactly stellar.
Especially since the breakup.
But she still knows me better than anyone, and i still know her better than anyone too... i think once the pain and anger subside, maybe we can fold this all into a close, sincere friendship.
That, i believe is attainable... in time.
Thank you, C, for giving me back a spark of hope... not necessarily for us, but for myself. It may just give me the strength i need to carry on.