Saturday, April 29, 2006, 9:56 am
Attack of the study break...
You know, i used to consider myself to be very fortunate. I mean, here i was dating my best friend. We could tell each other anything!
At least i thought we could. I still don't know why she didn't tell me what she was feeling. Why didn't she tell me what she wanted?
A smart and very sexy girl once told me, "At least the nice thing about the future is that we can make it any way we want and spend it together!" I knew i had picked the right girl to give my heart to.
I don't think she remembers how happy that sentiment made me. I don't think she remembers how happy that sentiment made her.
Oh, how i wish the phone would ring. How i wish she would consider my worthy of a second chance.
I wonder if she is wearing the necklace. The necklace she has worn almost everyday since i gave it to her... the necklace she loved so much it brought a gleam to her eyes.
I am troubled. I am afraid that she is so convinced things are not going to work she will only set me up to fail. She will never again see the good in our relationship. Most of all, i am afraid that she doesn't want us to work it out.
She wants to end it. Should i just let her? I know that the more i persist now, the further away i will push her... but it is hard.
She wants to stay friends... i am so afraid of the heartaches yet to come if she will not reconcile with me. Hearing about her dating. Hearing about her new man. News of her wedding. On the flip side, i want to be there for her.
How am I Supposed to Live Without You?Laura Branigan
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