Friday, April 28, 2006, 6:34 pm

Meet C.

I love this girl. However, she has seen something in me recently that i have missed. I am no longer the man she fell in love with. I have lost the vision.

And now i must get it back. I must find him.

Don't kid yourself in thinking i'm doing this solely to get her back. That may only be half of it. You see, we are living a distance apart right now. I see now what she sees... that i have let the distance eat away at my soul. I need to do this for myself as well as for the good of our relationship.

Tonight is the night i say goodbye to this pathetic shadow i have become. It is time to find and restore the man who cast the shadow.

C, i want you to know that i'm very serious about becoming a better man. I don't want to play games with you... i've never played games with you. I've just let myself slip into an addiction of apathy. I know i had my problems before, and i intend to be a better man than before. I just hope that someday i can earn your respect again.

She will be mine again, oh yes. She will be mine again!

What i'm listening to:

Here I Stand and Face the Rain
a-ha
Hunting High and Low